The Lone Wolf

A Study

I don’t know how long I have been writing this. It’s hard to write about a subject you seldom meet, and even fewer time in its true form.

He has always made me feel as if I have always known him, like we have grown up together.
But it’s only in the recent past have I come to know about his existence, his true existence.

Have spent countless nights with him, both sad and happy, foolish and wise, futile and some of them even highly edifying.

And almost always, he; somewhere or other used to leave a hint, a hint which always lead to a thought of singularity.

Hints which often made me wonder on questions like,

Why do we have to be with a family at home, with friends at school, with siblings in the backyard with colleagues at office and in a graveyard full of other dead people after death?

                                                                         

The answer, which I came to learn the hard way was very compelling. It can’t be denied that we all are afraid of being alone. We fear death, but not greater than the fear of dying alone in a closet. We love to get lost, but losing your hotel name in an alien location sends chilling spikes to the nerves of an average traveler.

Unlike many of us, ‘He’ wasn't born alone, but unlike any of us, he prefers to stay that way.

No, he is no average singleton grocery buyer! He lives in the 21^st century, and things like this will only call out for attention-hurling-police. He have been playing this normal character from a very long time and have developed perfection in it, when asked frankly, even he wasn't able to recall since when.

He lives, he moves, he talks, she sees, he winks and he moves on. But deep down his heart, he is a “Lone Wolf”

“First they try to kiss you, be you then kill you”

We all have that dark desire to break free and live life our way, quiet contrary to the facts that we all are chained to different shackles of life. But when you see someone who’s wrists are scar-less, living a free man’s life, not giving a damn fuck to anything in life other than the few things that makes difference of him being alive, ‘You’ feel insecure! You want to ‘be’ like him, ‘live’ like him but you can’t. You can’t because you have only seen the bright side of the full moon.

The moonless nights are kept away from you for your own good, But he reveals the darker side, the side he chooses to reveal only when its time. This time you start fearing him. You pity his life and feel sad for him, but it hardly matters and you better do so, that’s the very reason he unraveled it, it’s time for either him to leave the system or yours.

There’s a phenomenon called waning. Coincidentally it’s connected to the gradual disappearance of moon from the sky in bits, pieces and slices. The only difference is that, we know the moon takes 28 days, we are yet to find out how long wolves take to come back.